Good Voch!
Golfer, I’m along the same lines as you. I’ll write in earnest (for a change. Don’t know why)
Forget the segulos. Direct attention the main, the ikar. Daven in earnest. Real davening, prayer from the heart. Don’t be shy to open up to your creator, let your floodgates loose! Bare the innermost recesses of your heart, of your entire being to the Ribono Shel Olam. Maybe that’s what HaShem is waiting for. Tears, real tears are never lost. They must only be real, not something put on, copied, emulated. Pray, cry out, appeal and pleed to your Gracious Father in Heaven, fervently!!
Let us hear good news, bekarov!!