Sparkly – can you speak to your Rav about it? Or is there any other adult you can talk to? Maybe one of your older siblings or another relative? A family friend? If you’re uncomfortable, you don’t have to give them the reason. It really has become very acceptable nowadays to go for therapy. It was even offered as a prize in OORAH’S last auction! You can just say that something happened recently that you feel you want to discuss with someone. Or that you have a lot of crucial life decisions to make and you want to discuss them with someone.
I just realized who you can call! Call Relief in Lakewood! They are a referral service for therapists. They can give you a referral and they may also be able to help you out with the financial part. It’s completely anonymous – you don’t have to give them your name if you don’t want to. They seem like they are really good. They do tons of research to determine which therapists are good, and which ones are good for which issues.
Let me know what happens. Hatzlacha Rabba!