AAQ: We suffer when we have to, but we defend ourselves, either through presents or through fight when need to and are able to. This is Yaakov/Esav 101.
Fine, I also personally prefer breathing just as much as you do, and there is no Mitzvah to seek to be killed ???, but there is no SHAME in being “sheep to the slaughter” when that happens. And if a Jew gets slaughtered for our Emunah, then he is the most honored and admirable a human being can be.