If you’re trying to be funny/sarcastic with all your self-denigrating comments -it’s long past any drop of humor in your comments. Noone appreciates this kind of sarcasm.
Trust me, when I’m being sarcastic, you’ll know it.
If you truly are lacking in self-esteem to this degree, please see a therapist. A lot of people have low self-esteem, but you seem to be an extreme case. You might have a personality disorder, or another mental illness. I’m not really into mental health, just regular medicine – so please get evaluated by a mental health professional.
Why should I see a therapist. A therapist can help someone who is good who believes he’s evil. I, on the other hand, am hopelessly and irrevocably bad. I’ve been told by educators and others in positions of authority that there is nothing redeemable about me. Far be it from me to disagree with any of these gedolim. I’ve been told that even when I try to do right, I do wrong. I’m simply living up to the mandate that was imposed on me.
The Wolf