Wow wow wow, I didn’t mean to come across as negative. I’m sorry if I did.
Here’s what I meant, pretty much: I know that diabetes is a unique challenge from Hashem. I’ve writtensome pretty positive posts about it in general, I don’t think I’m allowed to link to them, but you can try googling the name in my profile. Basically, diabetes has shaped me tremendously as a person and I can’t imagine life without it. At the same time, the daily grind of diabetes can be really tough. I was diagnosed at twelve: the age where I remember life without it, but just enough to be wistful and dreamy. I’ve lived basically my entire adult life with it and some times (especially a day like today when I correct a 214 and go UP to 344 O_O) I just want a break. Ultimately, however, I know that Hashem has my good in mind and I can’t complain.
Bout shidduchim, I think I’m more burnt out from the whole process and mindset of the community (ie shadchanim, “resumes,” etc) than the actual idea of shidduchim. I’m not really worried, I know Hashem will send my bashert when the time is right. It happens to be a little harder now than it used to be because the last of my single friends just got engaged….